Asking for Prayer.

So of you may have already figured out that our adoption process is moving very slow. It will be about 4 years since we first made the decision to adopt. And we finally applied on Christmas of 2009. We have been on the referral list for 4 months now. We were told to expect it to be about 8-9 month wait. So we thought we had at least made it to half way! But yesterday we were told that the referrals for our specific request are now taking closer to 12 months. Another year.

Waiting gets really old. I have understood so much during this long time of waiting, but it still feels defeating. It's like thinking you are 4 months pregnant and then finding out you are really only about 4 weeks along. I trust him with my disappointments, but there is a strong part of me that just wants to figure out how to control it and fix it.

Pastor Ryan talked last Sunday about, " Surrender." I guess I am putting that into use this week. There is nothing I can do, but trust that his plan has our best interests in mind. Our small group is reading through the Bible and we read Zechariah last week, and in 4:6 it says, " Not by might, nor by power, but by the Spirit, says the Lord of hosts." It is only through his Spirit that I can place my trust.

Another on going burden has been us selling our house. We were also called to sell our house to move to the intercity of Marion. That was 2 years and 4 months ago, and little to no movement has happened.

I guess in this post today I am asking for help. In Luke 11:9 it says: "And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you." For so long I have read this verse as, Ask God and he will be there to help listen and answer your prayers according to his will. But the other day, a light came on that Jeremy and I are very independent people. We see a challenge and we conquer it usually on our own. We very seldom ask others for help. But after reading this verse it clicked with me that God might be saying to me. Ask my people. So I am. Jeremy and I need prayer. We need to know we have people cheering us on while we wait for the two children he has planned to join our family, and prayer that somehow our house would sell and allow us to follow his call to the intercity.

I know that there is nothing I can do, but to surrender it all to him, but also humble myself that we as a family can't do it on our own, we need his body praying and lifting us up as we enter yet another year of waiting in his presence for the things he has promised us.

Thank you for your love and support! We are humbled by this journey and know we need your prayers.