Maybe tomorrow.

It seems like we hear  those words alot around our house. Another update tomorrow... or we will see next wednesday..... week after week it seems like we keep getting the same report. This document is in, that document is missing. The document changes from week to week on which one they need... it never remains clear which one they really need, and to be honest it really is all out of our control. It doesn't matter if we knew or not, for sure we can't change the situation. We are here, and we are here to wait.

We had an amazing time this week. Celebrating with family! Amber was home and she got to share with us making Injera and eating Ethiopia food together! It made me feel closer to Tad in a good way. God has confirmed some things for me. I can cook for my Ethiopian Boy! I will be a good Ethiopian Cookin' Mama. Yummm! Your missing out if you haven't tried it! I hope to share it with Awan's classmates this week at school. If I can do it again. LOL

I haven't written or even felt like connecting to words for a while. I guess I felt like maybe if I just would put my feelings and emotions aside time would pass and I could come back to my blog with a celebration of good news and Embassy dates rather than more waiting and more writings about God's constant presence in times of waiting!

I have moved beyond the waiting so to speak, Jeremy and I love our life. We love Awan and Zadyn and live out each day not just waiting for Tad, if that makes sense. I hope so. But it does feel hard when we go into Zadyn's room and there is his bed, and there is his packed suit case that has been sitting there packed and ready to go since December 14th. His unwrapped Christmas presents still waiting for him with our expected hope that he might have just made it home for Christmas. And now we are unsure he may not even be here before he turns 5 in April. Oh how my heart does break. How it does get heavy and waiting though I wish it didn't hurt.... it does. It is painful.

I know God is here and is presence and he is with me. I shared last week in our small group that it's been really hard for me to explain my journey because through the waiting and through being sick the last few years there have been times I have felt like God has walked out and left me but yet I also know that not to be the truth either. I know that even in those times of great despair he was there.

Last week in the gloom of the Embassy delay I did feel God's bright glory shine into me and what should have felt grey and gloomy didn't. Now today has felt gloom and dark, don't get me wrong I still have those days! LOL but he is there and he has his way of shining through the storm and showing us he is still there even if the storm is still there.

If you have a chance, for me listen to the song by Casting Crowns. Praise Him in the Storm. It could not be a clearer portrait of the journey that I have walked with Christ the last 4 years.

It's hard for me to share because all I want to do is jump up and down and proclaim from roof tops that we have an Embassy date but true faith is the ability to shout and proclaim and shout that God is faithful and he is good and he is worthy even when we have no Embassy date and that we will Praise him anyway. We have no paper work but we will praise him anyway! We have no more ability on our own to wait but we will wait with him anyway.

We love and appreciate so many of your prayers and words of support.Thanks so much!  We  will keep praying that Tad will come home soon.